Thursday, July 06, 2006
A newfound garden Current mood: contemplative
"A beautiful garden grows and fluorishes within her soul; a great awakening, a new revival, a refreshing experience"
A phrase written some time ago finally arrives at reality. Learning how dreams and desires come to life. I am coming to life once again. Here I am, a camp in a far away land where there is fewer voices and less distractions. All past is eliminated. My view is focused, my soul finds itself found, and my heart yearns for more of meaning and value in everything. I refuse to settle and to listen to what is not attuned with the chimes of the Lords whisper and spirit. My spirit I will not abandoned. My physical body has been revived by the spirit that resides within and produces a flow of energy throughout.
I choose to let go. I used to strive off of external expression and impression. I used to rely on my own understanding of my body's limits and my own minds capacity. I used to maintain my relationships based on convenience and meeting different needs. I used to carry on so much for what little I would offer. I choose to take the path much higher and freeer, in which I can experience God on a new level, in a continum of epignosis (experiencing Him in the moment).
You see my frame of mind is so narrow and my sense of direction is so weak. But leave it to God to point the arrow into the land of everlasting, flowing of milk and honey, with an abundant harvest to grow and invest in.
"When there is no wood, the fire goes out" Prov. 26:20.
You see there is no means of survival without purpose and passion. Everything I do I want to revolve around these two things. Otherwise Im leading an Ecclesiastes life, one that is vain, meaningless, and hopeless. But I choose to be joyful and content in this moment of rush, confusion, an array of decisions, physical weakness, and foggy clouds roaming upon my eyelids.
My eyes get easily distracted and lustful if I do not have them fixed on the Lord. My heart falls into traps of fantasy and adultery if I do not search His heart and discover what its like. My feet stumble if I plan my own steps.
"There are many plans in a man's heart, nevertheless the Lords counsel will stand." Prov. 19:21
So I sit before the stand, the crowd, or perhaps just at His throne in complete awe, peace. Sitting on a mountaintop in the middle of only God knows where leads me only to ask "whats next? how can fully receive the ultimate abundance? How can I give love to all, big, tall, colored or small?
Truth is God sees no colors, cultural boundaries, or even the ugliest of who I am inside..
Im coming back to the heart of worship where its about Jesus. Dwelling in His presence, occupied by His work, and living in His truth
A newfound garden Current mood: contemplative
"A beautiful garden grows and fluorishes within her soul; a great awakening, a new revival, a refreshing experience"
A phrase written some time ago finally arrives at reality. Learning how dreams and desires come to life. I am coming to life once again. Here I am, a camp in a far away land where there is fewer voices and less distractions. All past is eliminated. My view is focused, my soul finds itself found, and my heart yearns for more of meaning and value in everything. I refuse to settle and to listen to what is not attuned with the chimes of the Lords whisper and spirit. My spirit I will not abandoned. My physical body has been revived by the spirit that resides within and produces a flow of energy throughout.
I choose to let go. I used to strive off of external expression and impression. I used to rely on my own understanding of my body's limits and my own minds capacity. I used to maintain my relationships based on convenience and meeting different needs. I used to carry on so much for what little I would offer. I choose to take the path much higher and freeer, in which I can experience God on a new level, in a continum of epignosis (experiencing Him in the moment).
You see my frame of mind is so narrow and my sense of direction is so weak. But leave it to God to point the arrow into the land of everlasting, flowing of milk and honey, with an abundant harvest to grow and invest in.
"When there is no wood, the fire goes out" Prov. 26:20.
You see there is no means of survival without purpose and passion. Everything I do I want to revolve around these two things. Otherwise Im leading an Ecclesiastes life, one that is vain, meaningless, and hopeless. But I choose to be joyful and content in this moment of rush, confusion, an array of decisions, physical weakness, and foggy clouds roaming upon my eyelids.
My eyes get easily distracted and lustful if I do not have them fixed on the Lord. My heart falls into traps of fantasy and adultery if I do not search His heart and discover what its like. My feet stumble if I plan my own steps.
"There are many plans in a man's heart, nevertheless the Lords counsel will stand." Prov. 19:21
So I sit before the stand, the crowd, or perhaps just at His throne in complete awe, peace. Sitting on a mountaintop in the middle of only God knows where leads me only to ask "whats next? how can fully receive the ultimate abundance? How can I give love to all, big, tall, colored or small?
Truth is God sees no colors, cultural boundaries, or even the ugliest of who I am inside..
Im coming back to the heart of worship where its about Jesus. Dwelling in His presence, occupied by His work, and living in His truth
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